A few weeks ago I wrote a little post about wanting to be more positive about life in genera. I feel like sometimes with blogging, it’s too easy to sugar coat your feelings or only talk about happy things. Probably making people think like your life is perfect. I know I feel this way about other blogs I read. And really, nobody wants to hear a Negative Nancy complaining all the time; but at the same time, it’s nice to know that other people’s lives just aren’t perfect, and people struggle with things every day.
I wish I felt more like telling you in depth about all the things in life I’m not happy about, how I wish I would just stop being lazy in general about things, how I wish we would make more time to make our house cleaner, to work on projects, how I wish I could be having extra money to pay off that credit card that I racked up from wedding things, how I really need a vacation, and how I wish I could just bake all the time (wouldn’t that be amazing?). But then I feel like, that’s all just minor things that just aren’t a big deal. We have jobs, a house, money to pay the bills (and money to throw around just a little bit). But the real part of me wants so many other things. Right. Now. I want a family. I want to move. I want to bake cupcakes and sell them. I want Chris to be done with school and have a better job. I want to not go to work every day wishing I was doing something else. I want to feel like someone cares.
I feel like I should make a list of all these things I want/need to get done, goals I want to have, because one would think that that would help me push forward – but most of me feels like I would be setting myself up for failure. Like I’m making a list of things that will not happen anytime soon so why bother.
In the meantime I will bake cupcakes and post photos of my cute family and pups, and work on not being so down in the dumps.